I'm not sure whether I should be proud of myself today, but I am anyway.
I went back to school yesterday, though I only stayed for one lesson because after that class I saw Derek and Matt - two of the boys who attacked me - in the corridor and freaked out, so my brother came and took me home. Today I went back and stayed for all the classes I had, even though I saw them again. I felt strong for managing to stick it out, but after my last class something happened that could easily have sent me running back home and away from the school forever.
I was heading towards the Library to collect a couple of books I need for an assignment when I bumped into Matt and Kevin (Kevin being the third boy who attacked me). I wanted to turn and run, but they were in my face before I could react and the next thing I knew they were pulling me towards the toilets.
I don't know exactly what they intended to do, but they said something about "teaching me a lesson" for going to the police and Matt tried to force me into one of the cubicles, so I hit him. Hard.
I've never hit anyone before in my life, and my hand is still throbbing, but he went down and there was blood so I guess I did a bit of damage. I ran out of there and Kevin didn't even try to stop me, so I went straight to the head teacher's office and told her what happened.
There's going to be an investigation and I might be in a bit of trouble for hitting him, but I doubt it will be as much trouble as they'll be in if they admit that I hit him. They're not supposed to come near me at school, so unless they try to claim I went looking for them, which I doubt anyone will believe, they might be looking at suspension. Hopefully the school will regard my actions as self-defence, but at this point I don't care. I fought back and got away from them, and that's really all that matters to me.
Ryo,
ReplyDeleteI must admit, I NEVER comment on the first post I read on a blog. But OMG, what a post!
I hope and pray that your school and everyone else that becomes involved (the police?) understands that behavior like that of Matt and Kevin is NOT to be tolerated!!!!
There are tears in my eyes for you. NO one should have to tolerate this b***$**t.
Care, Ryo, care. I hope your school is not one of those stupid zero tolerance schools that say "if you hit, you are guilty and you are "suspended/expelled/can we crucify you" schools.
I work in secondary education. Please feel free to reach out. I am on YOUR side!
I will catch up with your blog. May I Follow you with Google?
Peace <3
Jay
Thanks Jay :)
ReplyDeleteSorry for the delay in replying - I've had a lot going on and couldn't deal with thinking about all this and dealing with the day-to-day crap we all have to put up with.
I was suspended, unfortunately. The school has a zero tolerance policy and the headteacher couldn't find a way around it. However, I was suspended for one day, and it was a Friday when I don't have any classes anyway, so not even a slap on the wrist.
Matt and Kevin have since been expelled, in part because of this incident and in part because another student made complaints about bullying from them. Unfortunately there's still one of them remaining, but he has had the good sense to stay away from me.
And I'm happy for just about anyone to follow my blog - just hope I don't bore them too much. ;)
I'm glad things worked out. It's just so stupid, some of these rules, that someone who is attacked is treated as if they instigated the fight when they are defending themselves. Zero tolerance has done so much more harm than good, it is not funny. Too bad there's a blemish on your record for this, but hopefully, that won't hurt you.
ReplyDeleteI don't think you'll bore me! If you check mine out, you'll see I'm looking for friends out here, and trying to share my story, too.
(And you don't need to apologize for being caught up in life and letting the blog slide a bit - it's just a sideline to the real things in life!)
Peace <3
Jay
Ryo,
ReplyDeleteA link I found today:
http://www.youtube.com/itgetsbetterproject
Peace <3
Jay